Confessions of a College Student

Confession for the day.....I struggle, and let's be real, I struggle daily. I'm 34 a full time mom, a full time college student and I stuggle with the fact of whether or not I will ever be good enough. A good enough mom, a good enough wife, a good enough student, a good enough housekeeper, good enough friend to those around me, pretty enough, or skinny enough. I just don't give myself enough credit if you want to be honest. Most people don't see this side of me, because I don't show it. But today I am letting down that veil and showing that even the most "put together" people have their struggles too. Sitting in class yesterday, of course we are doing some group work for an in class assignment, in my head I know the answer, but to shout it out or to even write it down is mortifying to me. As I was walking thru the problem with my accounting professor she stopped me dead in my tracks and said one of the most profound things I needed to hear, "don't doubt yourself, you never give yourself enough credit Melissa. Just go with your gut, you always have it right." Then today in Macroeconomics my professor again said the same thing, I doubt myself when I know the right answer. Geez have they been living in my head these past few weeks? It clicked right then and there. I don't give myself enough credit. I know I'm a complete perfectionist, and I struggle with that particular area of my life, just ask my poor kiddos....lol, but seeing myself in the light that God created me to be is sometimes really hard. NOBODY is perfect, and I must remember that daily. He created me to be this amazing woman full of laughter, smiles and love. And I really am trying to see this daily in every area of my life. If I can brighten one person's life each day with my smile or my laugh or the love I can give to them, then my job is full-filled for the day. It really isn't that hard, is it?!?! lol Hey on a very positive note I'm a full time mom/college student pulling a 4.0!!!! NOW that's something to be proud of :) I'll leave you on that particular note......